19/12/2008

Come this day I'm finally legal to do all those things that I will never do. It's an odd achievement really. It's like going through 8 years of medical school and then not become a doctor. I got a lot of messages, wall posts on Facebook all saying, "OMG ur lyk legal n shit so u cn lyk do all dat abuv 21 sht. daym man dat's so kewl.."

After I spent some time deciphering what that meant, it was funny to see that turning 21 for me was no different than turning 19, 20 or when I turn 22. I mean yeah, 18 was a big deal, driver's license and stuff but beyond that I couldn't really care.

This birthday is an odd(er) one because it's the first time I'm celebrating it 'by myself.' I haven't celebrated it that way since I turned 18 and had a party where she showed up. It's odd.

My most memorable birthday ever was my [edit] 20th, [edit] when they (read: she) threw me a surprise party with this big ass custom made card, (which I realize now that I did not blog about it then) and cake and friends and stuff. This birthday was quieter but I must appreciate BARRY (moron :P) for buying me something that I've wanted for some time now. Him, Mareena, Alistan and Ritesh pitched in for it (And I think there are more, just not sure who). They bought me a paintball marker. Specifically a PCS US-5 Field Marker (Equipment -> Ordinance -> US-5 Field Marker). It's olive green (one of my favourite colours) and I love it.

In other news, Sana should be back in town on the 22nd, and for some reason my parents keep asking me about it. While I think it's cool, I think it's also kind of unnerving when your parents seem more excited than you do to meet your best friend.

I'd like to throw out an apology to all my readers for not updating in the last week or so. I blame Twitter. I mean that thing is ADDICTIVE and so much more easier to update than a webpage. But still, now that I'm over the initial twittering shock, I will hopefully spend more time on my blog and resume posting at a more regular pace.

Also, this weeks TWS will be slighly delayed due to crappy internet over here in the UAE. It's been off its mark all day and for some reason Youtube isn't working so I'm kinda stuck as I had a nice little video that I was gonna post. So watch out for it, it should be out within the next 2 days.

The other day I fired up blogger and everything and I had a great something to talk about. I logged in and went straight to the create a post page and was sitting there and got distracted for the slightest of seconds. Moment I turned back to the screen, I had this mental gap in my memory and had completely forgotten what it was that I was going to blog about. Darn it. That's the second time that's happened in one week. Age. It's getting to me.

With that, I'll leave you guys until I remember something to blog about. Cheerio!


M


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Long time coming..

How can this not make you smile?



At least SOMEONE got to do it..


M


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Clackity Clack..

It's been a while since I updated here so here's my stuff..

December's been eventful lately, to say the least.. Both good and bad things. I normally enjoy my Decembers. They're a lot more relaxed than all the other months. Work slows down as all companies start packing up their yearly fiscals and stuff. Schools slow down as everyone buckles up to study for the end semester papers, so while we still attend University, it's not as hectic anymore.

In October, a then friend of mine made a post that was quite.. vague. Now, that post just seems ridiculously contradictory. It did then too, but now it just reeks of it. So, when earlier this month I discovered some secrets that put a lot of that into perspective, I was pleasantly shocked and the struggle was to keep it in me and not blurt it out. Methinks I actually did a half decent job about it. I didn't post it here or any place. Didn't mention it to anyone either, although I did mention it on my twitter.

Last night I finally did it. I didn't want to do it earlier because the other person was in a state of duress and I did not want to spit it out then. Last night I guess my patience cracked and I did it quite bluntly. Not too happy with the way I did it, but it's irrelevant eventually . I wanted to do it in a better way, admittedly I was quite brash about it.

I almost began writing another hate post last night but I'm glad I calmed down some and did not. That would not have been very mature or fit for the moment. Sure it might have blown off a little steam, but I'm still equally mad now only difference is I'm physically calm.

There are things in life that you take for granted. Amongst them is the untruth that people will stand by what they say.

Nay. They won't. They'll stand by it when it's convenient for them to do so. Beyond that, your guess is as good as mine.

The event from last August that led up to my reaction last night proved one thing. Some people are full of shit. They say things and take stands, NOT because it's what's ethical, but simply because it's what makes them look that way. It's all about image. It's all about how a third person, who doesn't know you, conceives you. A dear friend of mine described it perfectly. A Conforming Non-Conformist. Every alternate person that is trying not to blend in with the remainder. By actively trying to NOT to conform with one group, you're conforming to another, albeit smaller, group.

I swore to myself some time ago, that I would not let myself show any emotional outbursts on this blog, simply because I wanted to refine my experience as a blogger. I'm glad I did not break that promise last night, as I'd probably have woken up this morning, read it and felt disgust at myself. So that's good.

I do, however, want to explain my last post. I understand that it might seem vague or, dare I say it, emo. But I guess at its end there was a thought in my head that I wanted to post. Or express rather. I know you very well. You know that. And I've often wondered, that when your anger, rage, bitterness, everything, when it all subsides. When you're no longer bound to the prejudiced judgment that you're normally hardwired to. As in, when your thoughts have finally calmed and have truly become unbiased, and you become who you try to hide from the world. Now this moment may be miniscule in time and space. But it exists. At that point, it may be RIGHT after you get off the phone, or just before you close your eyes to fall asleep. Or maybe even when you open a book, switch on your pc, open a closet. Anything. No matter HOW small it may be. At that single flashpoint.

What DO you say?

Another thing that really shocked me is that how some people walk scot free for something so heinous. Simply because they're fathers know all the right people.

M


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The Ballads of M: I wonder..

When no one's listening. When no one's there to see.

I wonder what you tell yourself.

Not your reactions no. When everything inside dies, and it's all quiet.

I wonder what you tell yourself.



M


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The Weekly Stupids V1P11: I believe in Judgement Day..

The Terminator movies did this to me....


M


PS. This weeks TWS courtesy of XKCD Webcomics.

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